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Post by Stacy on Jun 7, 2010 22:31:34 GMT -5
I AM STUCK, OMG!
I have some dialogue. I have some stage directions. What I don't have is words to fill them out.
I think it's a speed bump my subconscious threw up to get me to take some time and think first. So probably I need to be lying on the bed with a notebook and a pen and doing some brainstorming and plotting instead of staring at the draft. I'll do that tomorrow night, I suppose. Tonight's too far gone.
So I know I said 10.03 by last night, but yeah - probably more like this weekend, maybe.
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Post by Stacy on Jun 8, 2010 19:03:53 GMT -5
*cracks knuckles* It's time to write some ultraviolence. LOL - the ultraviolence playlist, created an hour and a half ago, already has 18 songs. Have made a bit of writing progress and a lot of imagining/planning/visions of next few updates progress today.
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Post by Stacy on Jun 9, 2010 9:08:30 GMT -5
This song is good at producing the vibe I want. Plus! Look at the fire! It's going to take some time to write, but it'll be worth it. I don't care about the clicks. Let them go down because I haven't updated. I have to get this right. I have to make this the best that I can.
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Post by Stacy on Jun 12, 2010 22:44:38 GMT -5
So. I totally meant to get a lot done today, but then Grace wanted to walk to dinner and then go to a drugstore on the way home and so we ended up not getting home until almost 9. I checked on things like here and Boolprop and Twitter and stuff and I was almost ready to go. Then I checked my email and found that my WoW stuff had been restored (my account got hacked the other week). So then I had to log in and it was three minutes to Wintergrasp so I did Wintergrasp. Then I had to organize my stuff. Which I didn't get everything back, but I got the important stuff. And now it's 20 minutes past 11 and I haven't even looked at the 10.03 draft. Sigh. So yeah - probably it won't be done by tomorrow night either, unless I disregard advice and go and find some cocaine to help me reach my literary goals. Also - will probably stop advertising on Boolprop. Maybe? It's like Rachel said in her Edith Prescott thread - I'm not so sure that it's going to fit into a PG-13 rating. The main character is a 15 year old boy. As my husband says - that means lots of foul language and at least the hope of sex. And it's 15 year old Seth, which means violence as well. I'm trying to find other places to advertise it, because yes, I am addicted to clicks and comments. I don't suppose any of you guys know a place like simstorytellers or simply_sims3 but for text-only stories?
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Post by Stacy on Jun 16, 2010 19:45:45 GMT -5
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Post by Stacy on Jul 15, 2010 17:27:33 GMT -5
So, hopefully someone remembers that Possum Kingdom by the Toadies is the ultimate Seth song.
Well. Today at work I put the Toadies CD on shuffle. (Errr, I have a bad habit of picking a couple favorites on a CD and never listening to the other songs so I hadn't listened to anything except Possum Kingdom and the one about "I came from the water.")
I was grooving along with the songs I hadn't heard before and thinking that they were pretty good at the guitar picking when I heard "Fire is bright, fire is clean."
Two perfect Seth songs on the same CD. Dayum.
So. Hopefully will get some work done on 10.04 this weekend. Tomorrow is the spousal person's birthday and we're going to dinner and a movie, so no working until Saturday.
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Post by moondaisy on Jul 19, 2010 18:28:29 GMT -5
It sounds like you are actually having a lot of fun in between posts! Hope the "spousal birthday" went well. (Just had to say that because I love your wording). There is no rush EVER, Stacy. You have a horde of fans - me included - who KNOW that they have to wait and are more than WILLING to do so, because their patience will be honoured by another masterpiece MORE than worthy of it. *hugs*
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Post by Stacy on Jul 19, 2010 22:39:57 GMT -5
Thank you. *hugs back* Oh yeah, it was great. We ate at Johnny Carino's and then we went to see Inception, which was cool. And his middle sister who likes to cook gave him some homemade brownies which were yummy and good. I've decided what I want to do for my birthday in December. Officially start Valley the novel. Seems appropriate for my 30th birthday. And haha, yeah, I call John "the spousal person" on occasion. That reminds me - I need to work on giving my characters their own language like Stacy language. I really do appreciate the support. You're a totally awesome person. So are all of my VSS peeps. I love you all. So, this song really motivated me back when I started Valley. When Valley first started getting popular, I'd play it and think about the haters and downraters from the Sims 2 days, lol. Bringing it out again to see it can work some motivation magic again.
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Post by raquelaroden on Jul 20, 2010 5:48:08 GMT -5
Oh how I love Dr. Horrible's Singalong Blog. I think it's great to set that goal for your birthday--it gives you time to plan and savor the excitement.
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Post by Stacy on Jul 20, 2010 20:44:15 GMT -5
Oh how I love Dr. Horrible's Singalong Blog. I think it's great to set that goal for your birthday--it gives you time to plan and savor the excitement. Isn't it the greatest thing ever? And yeah - plus it'll give me something to look forward to and distract me from the whole being ancient thing. So I surfed around the Sims community some tonight and saw a reference to the secrets (just in general - and actually in reference to a positive one) and just....okay, I am currently listening to my angry songs for when I'm angry playlist and blasting Lose Yourself again. So current plan is to just go and write 10.04 just for me. Close all the windows except YouTube and the draft and just write it like I'm not even going to publish it. And hell, maybe I won't. I'd seriously hide the blog again if I hadn't installed brakes on that particular impulse. It's just - why put stuff out there as long as that...thing exists? Song changed. Go RATM! Every time I start screaming along with "Fuck you I won't do what you tell me", Nova jumps up in my lap.
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Post by Stacy on Jul 20, 2010 22:54:44 GMT -5
Haha, wow, never noticed the part of the song Bodies that goes:
one nothing wrong with me two nothing wrong with me three nothing wrong with me four nothing wrong with me
It came up while I was editing 10.01 and I was like whooooa.
Which yeah, I'm editing the whole thing. I've rephrased and moved some stuff around and deleted a fair bit in 10.01 and I'm trying to work in the alchemy somewhere but man, the biology book works so well with Caitlyn talking about the biology quiz.
At least the mention of plant cell structure introduces the idea of plants. Maybe I can just expand on that when I edit 10.02. Not giving up yet though.
OMG OMG OMG the flow and the desire and the love are back! I don't know - I just decided I'm writing this for me, damn it. And it was like the flood gates opened.
Blasting Lose Yourself again at the moment, lol.
You better lose yourself in the music the moment you own it you better never let it go
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Post by Stacy on Jul 28, 2010 6:34:38 GMT -5
I think I'm pretty much done editing 10.01 through 10.03. Added just a tiny bit to 10.01 and 10.02 - just a taste of alchemy. And I cleaned stuff up and deleted a fair few words and rearranged some things. So, with that done - time to dig into 10.04 tonight.
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Post by Stacy on Aug 2, 2010 21:57:17 GMT -5
Am deep into 10.04, so this won't be a long post. And actually it's copied and pasted from my LJ, so hey.
I just wanted to say...this is the reason. This is the point. This is the joy and the love and the ecstasy.
It's just me and the words and the letters and the draft and the words are starting to show themselves to me, starting to shape themselves into images with meaning that I didn't see at first, that I couldn't see until I'd chipped enough away from the slab of blank page.
When it's like this, when everything is white and light and beautiful, the stats page doesn't matter. The comments don't matter. The secrets don't matter. None of it matters. That's all...that's all on the outside. It's thin and it's superficial and it's not real and it doesn't matter.
What matters....what matters is the beauty. What matters is the words. What matters is the music. The rest of it - the rest of it fades off into the darkness and all I can see is the story. All I can see is Seth and his plants and the sun and his shears and Caitlyn coming up behind him.
I must be as perfect as I can at this moment. In the past I didn't know as much and in the future I will learn more. The words have to be as perfect as they can be here, now. This perfectionism is not self-hatred. This is not distorted thinking. This is not ugliness and hate and tears in the night.
This is...
This is sacred.
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Post by Stacy on Aug 7, 2010 0:45:47 GMT -5
This isn't really connected to 10, but I need to express it and don't really know where else I can say it - don't want to spam up LJ with three posts in one night.
I FUCKING HATE SIMSECRETSSSS!!!!!!!!
There. I feel better.
So I got a referral from the members page of simstorytellers, and I went to check it out and it had the recent updates of SST members. Two of them mentioned SimSecrets.
I made the mistake of clicking on the link.
Oh god.
I don't care if people post complimentary stuff there - it's still anonymous and it's still the fucking hellhole of the internet. When the page loaded my heart started racing and I started breathing faster.
Kind of like seeing the slicers at Harris Teeter after quitting Arby's.
So yeah. I feel all icky and nasty and dirty and slimy now, and I used to be sort of friends with someone who was going on about the secrets complimenting her and now I pretty much hate her. And anyone else who would even look at that shithole. Which includes some close friends, but how close can I be to you if you're that covered in evil?
I'm stepping away from the internet now.
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Post by Stacy on Aug 7, 2010 13:12:31 GMT -5
Read 10.04 over a few times and I feel better now. And less reminded of stress and more able to be a bit objective and see that people who haven't had my experiences with secrets may not react or feel as strongly as I do about it and that's cool.
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Post by Stacy on Aug 8, 2010 2:21:28 GMT -5
So John just read 10.04. He says it's good and that Caitlyn sounds a bit like me, but not to the point of Mary-Sueness. And he says he found it interesting that Seth locked the back door while doing yard work and Caitlyn found it weird.
I sort of totally didn't realize that John does that (and yes, I find it weird) when I wrote it. He also does not own jeans and only wears khaki pants. And to tell the truth - Seth the sim is based on him, in looks and clothes. Well - John doesn't wear cardigans but the game didn't come with golf shirts and the cardigan looked the next most like him.
The glasses are all me, though - John has 20/20 vision.
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Post by Stacy on Aug 8, 2010 14:26:37 GMT -5
So my husband says this is our song.
And having had the similarities of Seth/Caitlyn to us pointed out to me...I'm really thinking about this.
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Post by Stacy on Aug 9, 2010 21:41:25 GMT -5
Started a Caitlyn playlist tonight.
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Post by adele on Aug 9, 2010 23:30:58 GMT -5
This isn't really connected to 10, but I need to express it and don't really know where else I can say it - don't want to spam up LJ with three posts in one night. I FUCKING HATE SIMSECRETSSSS!!!!!!!! There. I feel better. So I got a referral from the members page of simstorytellers, and I went to check it out and it had the recent updates of SST members. Two of them mentioned SimSecrets. I made the mistake of clicking on the link. Oh god. I don't care if people post complimentary stuff there - it's still anonymous and it's still the fucking hellhole of the internet. When the page loaded my heart started racing and I started breathing faster. Kind of like seeing the slicers at Harris Teeter after quitting Arby's. So yeah. I feel all icky and nasty and dirty and slimy now, and I used to be sort of friends with someone who was going on about the secrets complimenting her and now I pretty much hate her. And anyone else who would even look at that shithole. Which includes some close friends, but how close can I be to you if you're that covered in evil? I'm stepping away from the internet now. Agreed. People hide behind autonomy and there's no filter so people's feelings and for some, lives, get ruined. And the comments are terrible too. Bashing someone when they're down at their weakest point. Ugh, I wanna give you a hug. Like, really bad.
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Post by Stacy on Aug 9, 2010 23:43:51 GMT -5
Awww, thanks. I do feel better now, though. Lots better. Although I have to admit that I'm still a little wary of anyone with it in their profile. It's not easy for me to get over trauma. I mean, it'd be totally cool if it was like fandomsecrets. Or the original PostSecret. None of that stuff is personal. It doesn't call anyone out by name, at least not that I've seen. And most of it is people admitting stuff they're ashamed of, as opposed to our habit of using it to shame others. But then we're a small inbred community, and fandomsecrets and PostSecrets are large cities. Eh - they can't troll 10 because it has nothing to do with Sims and I imagine that my personal stuff is old news by now, so hopefully I've seen the last of it. So I'm going to put it behind me and focus on 10 now, because I have utterly fallen in love with it. The glory days of Valley are back. Emotionally and creatively, that is. Not stats page wise. But eh. Waiting on 10 to be approved at Web Fiction Guide. It should fit their parameters more, being full text. I anticipate a rise in traffic once it gets approved and people start reviewing it.
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