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Post by celebkiriedhel on Oct 15, 2010 9:53:16 GMT -5
LOL - Send John to his room - I want more Farmer John!
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Post by Stacy on Oct 19, 2010 22:37:54 GMT -5
LOL - Send John to his room - I want more Farmer John! The other night John didn't come to the couch, but he was watching some show on his computer and would occasionally laugh really really loud. So actually what worked was sending myself to my room, although I got questions about why I closed myself in the bedroom. Didn't get any new stuff written tonight, but did some pretty heavy editing on the stuff I wrote last night. Which man - I was tired, and it showed. Some awful sentences. It's better now but it still needs work. Current word count - 1,213 And I'm thinking there might be a whole second section from Farmer Brown's wife's POV, lol. So I just went and reread my posts in the second Valley babble thread. After reading a lot of stuff about bullying. My experiences weren't anything near the experiences of the teenagers I've been reading about, the ones who killed themselves. I've been sitting here crying. I'm an adult. I had a support system. It wasn't anyone I knew IRL. And still, it was horrible. I had forgotten how bad it was, really. How I deleted everything (except Valley, thank goodness - Hoopty, if you're out there reading this - if I ever delete the WordPress blog that would be the time to use the emergency contact number...should probably give that number to someone else now) and then went and cried hysterically in John's arms. I know a lot of Sims peeps are teenagers. I worry about them. We've got a fair few lurkers here, right? If anyone reading this is a target of bullying in the Sims community and feels awful and depressed and full of self-hate and anger and just all bad things - please don't let them win. Get away from LiveJournal. Get out of the toxic dump. If you're here already - register and hang out with us. We're nice. You are a good person and you have worth. Reach out to someone, anyone. Me, if you have nowhere else to turn - I'm MedleyMisty on Boolprop and LJ, so you can talk to me on those places if you want. My email is listed on my profile here. I've been there. I made it through. You can too. *hugs*
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Post by Stacy on Oct 25, 2010 21:22:54 GMT -5
Am typing up the last bit of Farmer Brown I wrote. I am a failure and did not write anything new today, but hey - I can edit for an hour or so before bed.
This isn't a spoiler, because come on, it's a Halloween story and it's by me.
Apparently at one point I spelled blood "bloood". Also I can't read my own handwriting and at one point I thought I'd written "swift and sane", and the context is not very sane at all.
And yes, it was actually "sure" and yes, that's getting edited.
Heh - this is the bit I spent a night cruising blogs about body decomposition to research. And there were pics. I actually went to another tab when Grace crossed by my computer to save her innocent eyes. Very out of character for me, lol.
All typed up. And omg yes, editing this will count as progress and work. It's terrible.
As for personal things - I am feeling a lot better, but I'm still convinced that I'm a horrible person and everyone hates me. I've made some progress reading and replying to PMs and such, so hey. That's good, right?
Also, YouTube took the shuffle button away. Again. I hate you, YouTube.
ALSO! This morning I had a dream in which an adult Harry Potter and a pregnant woman who was seven months along went on a rollercoaster in Russia that was over a large body of water. But the rollercoaster didn't have cars - instead they took their own car on it. And it fell off into the water. They got out of the car and were swimming around and some dude was shooting at them.
And then later everyone was hanging out and talking and they were like "Dude, did you even know you were trying to kill Harry Potter?"
ALSO! Last night my adventures in internet surfing took me to a website about an entity that channeled information that seemed a lot like Loevinger's theory of ego development and also spiral dynamics, but wrapped up in reincarnation and soul levels. Apparently this entity was first channeled in California in 1974, and as I told John I found that very easy to believe. I've seen pictures of house interiors from the 70s. Dude. Bad trips, man. Baaad trips.
It was interesting how close the soul levels were to the levels in Loevinger and spiral dynamics, though.
Tonight my adventures led me to mommy blogs, and I have not written anything new because I've been reading this one blog about a woman with four kids all night. Hey, I used to read Erma Bombeck when I was a kid. It's nostalgic or something.
John said "You find the weirdest things to read online."
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Post by Stacy on Oct 28, 2010 22:52:08 GMT -5
Okay, so I made actual progress tonight! It has to be done by Sunday. I think I can do that, even though we may go back to the Renaissance Festival on Saturday - Grace is going to D.C. with one of her sisters for the Daily Show rally thing so John and I could go by ourselves and they have special Halloween stuff this weekend. I'm thinking of posting the first bit on Boolprop and then a link to the second bit if you want to keep reading, because the second bit is probably as gory as my style of horror gets. Like I said - "bloood" and decomposed bodies. Err - I've sort of gone way more complicated and in-depth than any of the other people in that thread, haven't I? But I've seen some really good stuff there, and it's great that pretty much all the entries are full text. I've sent PMs to some of the posters complimenting them and encouraging them to keep writing. I know I can pull this out. If we do go to the Ren Fest, I'll take the notebook in the car and write on the way there and on the way back. It will be done and posted by Sunday. Promise.
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Post by raquelaroden on Oct 29, 2010 5:30:08 GMT -5
Hey, don't apologize to us for getting out of the house and doing stuff with your loved ones! We'll wait for your story.
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Post by Stacy on Oct 29, 2010 9:27:05 GMT -5
Hey, don't apologize to us for getting out of the house and doing stuff with your loved ones! We'll wait for your story. Aww, thanks - but I really do have to have it out by Halloween. I was more apologizing to myself, lol. So in the shower this morning the rest of the plot came clear. I now know where I'm going, which should help a lot. Planning on massive writing tonight.
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Post by celebkiriedhel on Oct 29, 2010 23:09:45 GMT -5
Yay! Massive writing!
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Post by Stacy on Oct 29, 2010 23:30:59 GMT -5
I actually just finished the draft. So - Ren Fest tomorrow, and then typing it up and editing it. Should easily have it published by some time Sunday night.
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Post by celebkiriedhel on Oct 29, 2010 23:44:30 GMT -5
That's great! That means you can enjoy ren fest without worry And we get to enjoy Farmer Brown on Sunday night... (I think it's my Monday Morning)
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Post by Stacy on Oct 30, 2010 22:25:11 GMT -5
That's great! That means you can enjoy ren fest without worry And we get to enjoy Farmer Brown on Sunday night... (I think it's my Monday Morning) Thanks! The festival was fun - saw a lot more shows today than we did last time. Which that meant a lot of sitting in direct sunlight, shading my eyes so I could see the stage. I have a nice sunburn on my chest now, lol. Also! I got a purple garland headpiece thing and a scented purple metal rose! Slowly, bit by bit, I am getting kitted out with purple fairy-ish stuff. Thought about dying my hair with some temporary purple dye - I really should have. Although hmm... My mother wants to go when she comes down here next time and she's spent years trying to get me to dye my hair blue or green or purple or something, so I guess I can wait and let her see. Used the fairy dust (aka glitter) I got last time as sort of blush this morning. We went to our favorite restaurant for breakfast and the waitress approved - of course, she was dressed as a witch herself. She gave me a high five when I told her we were going to Ren Fest. I seriously thought about buying some purple fairy wings, but they would have cost about a hundred bucks. Oh! I have decided on my next side project! Glitterface the Necrofairy! So I finished typing up the draft from last night. The current total word count is 2,127. But I have a ton of editing to do, omg - I don't know what I was on last night, but I think I was trying out that idea of just getting the story out and letting it suck and making it pretty later. Well - am about to get started on making it pretty. And I need to bring out the big guns for this. beautiful letters playlistThat's the playlist I listened to while editing the last two Valley updates, so now it's like my good luck playlist.
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Post by celebkiriedhel on Oct 30, 2010 22:48:38 GMT -5
That's an amazing playlist. I'd never heard of Saltillo - but I can see I have to go out and listen more to him/her/them. And I adore the classical music you chose. (I'm a big fan of good classical music).
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Post by Stacy on Oct 31, 2010 15:20:31 GMT -5
That's an amazing playlist. I'd never heard of Saltillo - but I can see I have to go out and listen more to him/her/them. And I adore the classical music you chose. (I'm a big fan of good classical music). Thanks! Added a couple songs to it today. And yeah, I'd never heard of Saltillo either - I found him on YouTube. I think Blood and Milk was in the list of related videos for this song - Drunken Milkman. Either that or I was trying to find it again and couldn't remember the title and searched for blood and milk. Okay. So I am hard at work editing Farmer Brown and making it all good, and I just said to John that I was at the climax and trying very hard to think of a non-cliche way to express something. So I just told him that I was at the most important bit of the story and thinking hard and struggling, and then a minute or so later I have to hit pause on the music and listen to him go on and on about some science fiction thing and steampunk and Cherie Priest and Charles Strauss. Sigh. Very hard to look interested and like a good spousal person and not like I wanted to hit him. Back to work - Requiem for a Dream and O Fortuna are very appropriate for this bit of the story, lol.
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Post by Stacy on Oct 31, 2010 17:40:32 GMT -5
It's done! Knock Three TimesWill also link in the Halloween story thread in the Exercises forum. And will keep this thread going, because I may write more stories in this universe in the future.
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Post by celebkiriedhel on Oct 31, 2010 20:21:39 GMT -5
Oh please do!!!! That is just too awesome to be a one-off.
I loved it!
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Post by Stacy on Nov 3, 2010 21:30:30 GMT -5
Oh please do!!!! That is just too awesome to be a one-off. I loved it! Thank you! *hugs* A comment on Farmer Brown gave me the idea for the next story in this universe - how did Ol 'Knocky die and become a malevolent spirit, anyway? So I got a straight up advertisement comment on Farmer Brown today - nothing at all about the story, just a link to the person's legacy. Sent it straight to the trash and then permanently deleted it. Felt good. I am probably the most pro-advertising, understanding of the desire for readers and attention person you could find in the Sims story world, but even I have limits - come on, would it be that hard to add in "Hey, good story!" or something to try and at least look like you're making an effort? Plus - plus I don't do Sims stories anymore and, with the lack of a large audience and places to advertise, I'm kind of getting distanced from the whole idea of advertising and quantity of readers. Not saying that part of me couldn't pop up again if I suddenly found a market for serial angst/horror/literary/YA webfiction, but well - at the moment that part is dormant. At the moment, I can't be fussed. In the webfic world, where there's not handy little forums and LJ comms, it takes more time and effort to promote your writing than I'm willing to take away from actually doing the writing. And also, you know - you put up a pretty pic and an interesting quote and get a few comments, Sim story fans are going to check out your stuff and more often than not they'll give it a fair chance. The webfic world wants to be just like traditional publishing. That little effort to get more recognition for webfic and create a guild of webfic writers and all that? Every post I read in that community pushes me further away from it. All that talk of money, of formula and genre, of webfic not being appealing to people because it doesn't have a corporate stamp of approval. Oh man, and then I saw one today about the need for editors to give webfic validity, because apparently us poor widdle webfic authors can't be trusted to know how to spell and know the basics of grammar or even to use spelling and grammar checks. Aren't we just so cute, wif our widdle blogs? It's like when I posted my first legacy on a forum and got "Good job! I didn't see any spelling errors!" as a comment. I'm done beating my head against the brick wall of mainstream culture. I will just write my little stories and share them with you guys and with anyone else who happens to stumble across my site and gives it a chance. And any future comments that are just links to people's legacies will be sent straight to the trash. I'm done. With a lot of things.
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Post by Stacy on Nov 4, 2010 23:09:31 GMT -5
Decided on the title for the Ol' Knocky story while listening to my Guns 'n' Roses CD today at work. Yep. Knock Knock Knockin' on Hell's Door
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Post by celebkiriedhel on Nov 7, 2010 3:04:19 GMT -5
that's a perfect name!
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