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Post by choco on Jan 6, 2011 2:56:50 GMT -5
This is something that goes on at another forum I visit and thought it might be therapeutic for some of us here. It goes a little something like this:
"I want this to be a safe place to talk about HOW you FEEL at this PRECISE MOMENT in time. Happy, sad, depressed, alone, jubilant, horny, whatever.......just say it."
Of course, if you want to talk about why you feel this way, by all means, go ahead. It's nice to feel as though you trust enough to let us in, even marginally, but you don't have to if you don't want to.
I guess I'll be brave and go first. Absolutely crappy. Who knew caring so much was a problem? All I want to do is make sure people are still alive and call from time to time as a genuine act of love and friendship, only to get bitten at. I really hate being me.
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Post by celebkiriedhel on Jan 6, 2011 8:23:18 GMT -5
How I feel at the moment? in-gibber-erated. (n.) to only be able to think in gibberish.
Also tired, sad, and a little hopeless. This will improve after a good night's sleep.
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Post by rad on Jan 6, 2011 10:24:17 GMT -5
Tired, fuzzy, full of lurgy.
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Post by Lorsty on Jan 6, 2011 11:04:48 GMT -5
I'm feeling a little bit sad yet also energic. Like I want to do a million things despite how I feel emotionally. It might be time to write more of my novel
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Post by laura on Jan 6, 2011 11:33:33 GMT -5
What a neat idea! I feel inspired!!! I feel bursting at the seams with ideas. I'm not sure it's a good thing, lol! I can't seem to focus on one single thing because I have so many dozens of passionately beautiful ideas in my head. I just want to share them all. At the same time. In equal glory. But I know that's not possible, lol! Also hugs to everybody feeling crappy
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Post by dinuriel on Jan 6, 2011 12:32:25 GMT -5
I feel frustrated. I just got a new phone over the holidays (I'd had my previous one for a few years and it was cutting out a lot during calls), and the alarm feature worked while I was on holidays--but now that I actually have to be up early, it's failing me. I've tried getting onto the online store to buy a louder, more obnoxious ringtone, but it's been offline for the past couple of days and shows no sign of any improvement
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Post by thelunarfox on Jan 6, 2011 16:04:41 GMT -5
I'm brain fried. Last day of the month for rent which meant late charges and it's Thursday so late rent report was due, and of course everyone has to stop in my office today with issues. Plus I have three applications in for 2 apartments.
I think it's going to be another blue brain day today.
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Post by Stacy on Jan 6, 2011 18:08:08 GMT -5
screaming scared paralyzed confused furious something between the shower scene in Psycho and putting your ATM card in a machine and finding out you are seriously overdrawn. Either way, you're going down.
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Post by Stacy on Jan 6, 2011 21:15:50 GMT -5
This thread inspired a poem. I am writing it now. I will post it here when it's done. So - I feel like I'm wiping away cobwebs that had gathered in the last couple of months of not writing for real.
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Post by choco on Jan 6, 2011 21:37:58 GMT -5
I'm glad that everyone is feeling at least slightly relived letting things out.
I'm still feeling crappy but more on the sad and wanting to hide under the covers, as opposed to feeling my blood temperature rising and scream as loudly as possible. I still feel like crying though.
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Post by celebkiriedhel on Jan 6, 2011 22:20:25 GMT -5
Still in-gibber-ated. And still sad, tired and hopeless. Dealing with issues in another forum.
But also feeling inspired because of Stacy's poem, and massive downloading spree for 1st episode of Story.
The joy of poly-feeling.
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Post by lepifera on Jan 7, 2011 4:41:22 GMT -5
In the past couple of days, I have been feeling that I exist in a different dimension from the people I actually see from day to day, simply spaced out. Does anyone else get that feeling when you are writing up stories?
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Post by thelunarfox on Jan 7, 2011 11:13:55 GMT -5
Weird, I was thinking about that yesterday. That when I'm really working on a story, I do feel different-- a little spaced out. And if I feel very in the real world sometimes I just can't work on stories.
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Post by laura on Jan 7, 2011 11:21:57 GMT -5
Lepifera and Lunar, agreed! And since I'm almost always working on one story or another, I feel like I'm always walking around with my head in the clouds, lol!
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Post by Stacy on Jan 7, 2011 11:51:02 GMT -5
I'm trying to figure out why I usually (not always, but usually) find it easy to give other living beings love and forgiveness and understanding but I hate myself so freaking hard for any mistake, any misstep, no matter how small. And assume that everyone else hates me for it too. Essentially - everyone else is to be given grace and forgiven. Everyone else is perfect and lovely and full of infinite worth as they are. Me - I say something wrong and make some stranger on the internet upset who then makes a nasty secret about it, and that means I have no worth as a human being and will never be good enough and am fundamentally flawed.
Really need to work more on the interview to have it done by Monday, but I'd rather think about my state of mind poem.
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Post by choco on Jan 7, 2011 12:45:58 GMT -5
Stacy, that sounds exactly like me. I have the worse case of paranoia about it too. Every time I think I someone hates me, especially if it has to do with text since I can't make out your tone, I immediately think that they hate me. It doesn't help that every time I get the feeling that someone doesn't like me, more than 9 times out of 10 I'm right about it. Right now, a friend & I were texting about some stuff, part of what is making me feel a bit crappy, and I'm just so up in the air about it. What you wrote just got to me because it sounds so much like me and how I feel just about most of the time.
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Post by bex on Jan 8, 2011 4:15:21 GMT -5
My feelings are:
Pissed at my husband. Pissed at myself for reacting so strongly with my husband earlier. Pangs of guilt and knowing that I'll have to apologize and I hate apologizing. Worries about getting everything done in a timely fashion. Wondering if what I do has any remote consequence on anyone else, and if I should bother doing half of what I do.
I'm all sorts of fun tonight.
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Post by Stacy on Jan 8, 2011 18:24:06 GMT -5
Stacy, that sounds exactly like me. I have the worse case of paranoia about it too. Every time I think I someone hates me, especially if it has to do with text since I can't make out your tone, I immediately think that they hate me. It doesn't help that every time I get the feeling that someone doesn't like me, more than 9 times out of 10 I'm right about it. Right now, a friend & I were texting about some stuff, part of what is making me feel a bit crappy, and I'm just so up in the air about it. What you wrote just got to me because it sounds so much like me and how I feel just about most of the time. back Thank you. It really means a lot to know that someone else got it and feels the same way. And Bex, you matter to me. to you too. As for me - I am feeling monstrous. Not human. And yet also in a weird way - at peace. Because....it's not my fault. I do have worth. And other people are going to interpret things I say wrong and I'm going to interpret what they say wrong, because we often do not have the same frame of reference. Mistakes are an opportunity to learn, not a sign that I am a horrible person. There. *waves goodbye to both former self and to the species*
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Post by lepifera on Jan 8, 2011 20:21:44 GMT -5
Standing besides a void, Lepifera looked down into a void, not sure whether to leap in and investigate, or to bury her head in the sand and pretend everything is just fine.
Lepifera: "I feel lost and empty".
Lepifera II: "Are you sure this void is yours? Perhaps it belonged to the characters of the story you were writing? Maybe you have picked it up from the couple you have stayed with in the past two days."
Standing behind the two, Lepifera III shook her head and sighed: "What am I going to do with myself."
Standing further behind the three, Lepifera IV rolled on the ground, laughing at the situation.
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Post by celebkiriedhel on Jan 8, 2011 21:53:27 GMT -5
in-gibberated still... but that's ok I'm getting used to only having a minute amount of my brain using coherent thought.
industrious. I'm making up an ipod mix for my mum.
sad, tired, and my eyes hurt. Maybe I'm sleeping too much?
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