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Post by infinitygoddess on Jan 30, 2011 15:24:44 GMT -5
Sitting on an LJ post, wondering if I should publish it. I did publish it. Then I just switched it to private. I'm all conflicted right now. Let's say that something has only been a force for great evil in your life. But people that you care about see something different in it and don't feel as strongly. But contact with this great evil really mucks you up, to borrow Pinkfiend's terminology. In reality it may be dark gray morally, but to you, because of the way you experienced it, it is the deepest darkest red. And everything about it is tainted and full of shadow and you can't really trust people who interact with it, even if they appear to support you and appear to be your friend and even if you know logically that they really are good people, even if they don't experience this great evil the same way that you do. But through your association with them, you keep coming into contact with the evil and it keeps mucking you up. On the other hand, you really do value them as people and as friends. What do you do? Well, I know for me, that my experience with it is different likely because I've begun to realize that I indeed have Asperger's, which means I'm not good with emotions and can detach easily emotionally from things under no control of my own (and boy, is it ever true with me, though I'm trying to be better). That's not to say that I don't get affected by anything ever. But at the same time, I don't nearly think of it as a "soul-killer" and much of a "soul-sucker" and I think that people just put up more secrets this week just for the sake of "maintaining interest" in it without thinking of the consequences. But in the end, I've decided that I'm just going to avoid that sort of thing. So I took it off my watch list. Let them think what they want and I don't care because I don't know about it.
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Post by celebkiriedhel on Jan 30, 2011 16:07:33 GMT -5
You know I support you. I think it's reasonable to ask that they not discuss it around you. The problem is not how they feel about it, but that it keeps on being brought up. The scars won't heal if they constantly get prodded. Friends are a precious thing, and good friends even more so. The thing with friends is that they compromise and support each other, even when they don't agree on the colour of things. CSOM: Feeling a bit mucked up myself actually. And now when I have a choice to be sleeping, my mind has me awake... again. And ANTS!!!! If I have to deal with ANTS going after my water anymore I will scream!
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Post by infinitygoddess on Jan 30, 2011 16:30:06 GMT -5
CSOM: Feeling a bit mucked up myself actually. And now when I have a choice to be sleeping, my mind has me awake... again. And ANTS!!!! If I have to deal with ANTS going after my water anymore I will scream! Meh, I'm adjusting to my ADHD meds. Because it's a stimulant (kinda funny considering the "Hyperactivity" aspect of it), I am WIIIIIIIDE awake. Like this: O.O And once I go on antidepressants, MORE stimulant fun. Whoopie!
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Post by celebkiriedhel on Jan 30, 2011 16:56:58 GMT -5
Oh Eek! We're awake together then! I'm on anti-depressants (escitalopram) and find they actually make me sleepy rather than awake - so maybe you might luck out and get a balance with it.
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Post by bex on Jan 30, 2011 21:28:18 GMT -5
Really irritated. Really irritated.
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Post by pinkfiend1 on Jan 30, 2011 21:41:58 GMT -5
Completly calm and positive, I think moving my bed around really was a good thing.
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Post by sb on Jan 30, 2011 22:09:18 GMT -5
I'm good. I can get out of the drive because people helped shovel the snow.
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Post by laura on Jan 30, 2011 22:28:58 GMT -5
Kiri, did you try the baby powder yet? I'm telling you, those bastards HATE that stuff! Use like five bottles of it! It was the only thing that worked for us. We had baby powder clogging up our vacuum cleaner for years, lol! Beth, awww, sometimes people can be amazing! I'm glad you got some help. Hugs to everyone! CSOM: supposed to be working. Back into the cave.
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Post by choco on Jan 31, 2011 9:06:29 GMT -5
CSOM: mind-freeing, if that's a word. I'm so happy that the game cooperated with me enough to finally get my shots taken and now I can concentrate on other stuff. Other stuff mainly being the end of my essay. Am I the only who can't work on one thing if the other thing is just steps away from being done? It's like a nag or that string that you have the urge to pull from your clothing.
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Post by mdpthatsme on Jan 31, 2011 15:10:25 GMT -5
Hope everything is getting better out there for our Aussie friends. We're about to get hit with an ice storm here in the mountains. I hope it isn't like the one a few years back because we were without power for like two weeks and when we got power back, our breaker box caught on fire. Ugh... CSOM: not sure...feeling slightly enthused, but at the same time not very enthused...feeling that I should be writing, possibly doing some type of homework or maybe drawing...music or something. I have too many projects, not enough brain, or hands.
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Post by pinkfiend1 on Jan 31, 2011 18:23:37 GMT -5
CSOM: Feeling like I want to be dreadfully ill so I don't have to go to work tomorrow.
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Post by rad on Jan 31, 2011 18:30:49 GMT -5
CSOM: Pissed off and not wanting to go into work tomorrow, not because of the students but because of the stupid administrative systems that piss everybody about and then they wonder why students complain.
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Post by bex on Jan 31, 2011 22:36:02 GMT -5
Really upset today.
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Post by choco on Feb 1, 2011 7:55:31 GMT -5
CSOM: nervous. I'm finally done with my essay and now I need critical eyes to look it over and give it a once, twice, thrice look over. I'm glad that this aspect is over but is it really ever over?
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Post by pinkfiend1 on Feb 1, 2011 16:24:10 GMT -5
Well chances are there are always going to be deadlines for things. Plus job applications and cover letters guarenteed nightmare when it comes to writing things. They make school work seem easier. But yay for completing your essay.
CSOM: nostalgic. Rad's fault. Remembering all the things I loved as a child. Irriated- a software update is available for the sims.
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Post by mdpthatsme on Feb 1, 2011 21:57:24 GMT -5
Feeling under the weather...and the weather here is bad, snow, ice, all that jazz.
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Post by celebkiriedhel on Feb 1, 2011 22:33:37 GMT -5
CSOM: The weather here has been between 39-43C since Sunday. I'm feeling wiped out. Today is better - it's 28C (80F)
That's 102F - 109F for people still using the imperial system.
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Post by mdpthatsme on Feb 1, 2011 22:40:51 GMT -5
Here it suppose to get down to -10F by Thursday.
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Post by infinitygoddess on Feb 2, 2011 17:13:43 GMT -5
Feeling bleh from my medications. The rainy weather all day didn't help things.
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Post by pinkfiend1 on Feb 2, 2011 20:29:44 GMT -5
CSOM Feeling like I've lied about something but i don't know what.
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